Was it worth it?
You were a horny young adult I was a vulnerable four year old child Was it worth it? You got to bust a few nuts I got a lifetime of trauma and scarring Was it worth it? Because of you, I learned how to “cup the balls” before I could tie my own shoes Because of you, I learned how to clean myself and hide evidence that any harm had taken place Because of you, I am still sometimes terrified of bathrooms at night - and I’m in my 40s Because of you, I discovered that people cannot be trusted. That men cannot be trusted. That “nice” people lie and live double lives. That all smiles are not real. I cannot tolerate even gazing at cinnamon rolls because they remind me of how your cum used to look dripping off of my toddler-sized body I have asphyxiating trust issues that persist to this day I bristle when I should purr and I hiss when I should hum As I cannot discern good intentions from bad ones, everything and everyone is suspect I brandish my paranoia and my sexuality like weapo...
